I have found a small, but vital part of myself again. I got to sing one of my all time most favorite pieces in the whole world yesterday. Verdi's Requiem. It was AMAZING!
I had a revelation of sorts this summer and realized that I have completely lost who I was before I had kids or even who I was before I got married. My husband and I had a long conversation about this and we came to the conclusion that I HAD to get back into singing classical music on some level. When school started back and I was home with the kids, that just solidified our decision. So...I went over to MTSU and joined the local community chorus. I have sung with them before when I was in college and once after I graduated, but then it just got hard to drive to the college after working all day and especially during my first year of teaching. We had our first concert yesterday and I loved every minute of it. It's like everything that I had lost came rushing back in that hour and a half. I actually teared up during our dress rehearsal on Friday because it just felt so wonderful. I know that God gave me this gift to glorify him, but have always struggled because our church doesn't sing classical music. Then it hit me...why do I have to be in church to glorify God with my voice? Just that I use the voice that he gave me is all He asks. It is by using my talents that I glorify Him. That can be the door to live boldly for Him. I'm still waiting to see how he will use this, but I am going to enjoy the ride.